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I just came back from my first class of the day... next one's at twelve noon. This is the first time that I actually felt so discouraged after any class... yeah, it's the "sports" class. But somehow I just can't see how that should distinguish them to be apathetic about their work on the whole. Well... they did not even bother to say thank you and goodbye when the lesson ended - I was at a student's terminal helping him out with his code when the lesson ended, and they simply went off without acknowledging my presence. Not to mention the way they're treating their assignments... well.

I'm not looking at myself. I'm just wondering how to help this class... currently apathetic, unconcerned if they're getting zeros for the assignments they are not handing up. How? I also don't know... I'm doing my best to explain to those who would listen and learn... and as for those who wouldn't, I really don't think I have the resources and time frame to know them enough to speak to them. Talk about the bane of being a relief teacher yeah. Haha...

I find myself not having that kind of energy like last year... where I would try my best to remember names and their faces even though I was only teaching them for about one to two months and meeting them only once a week. Well... feeling great inertia to take photos with the classes this year... should I? Oh wells.

There were many hiccups in signing up for my vocal course at Lee Wei Song School of Music... till now, the cheque sent from the States can't be processed because of the wrong company name written on the cheque. The consolation is that this time round the school had admitted that the error's on their side and they're allowing me to proceed with starting the course first while waiting for the correct cheque to arrive... so, yeah. Should be starting in time to come, an hour a week for a year. My aim? I just want to use this opportunity to be properly trained in my vocals... and hopefully improve my range. As to what this will all lead to in the future... I must say, I'm just committing all these to Him without knowing what will come out of it. And I'm really thankful for how He's provided for my studies even when I was yet a Christian back then... it's something that I'm prone to take for granted especially when I haven't got the need to pay for my tertiary courses for the past years.

Dori (my younger sister) went for her checkup on tuesday... her results showed an inflammed liver again. Her doctor said that she'll have to go for a proper scan to check exactly what's wrong with the liver. The serious implication is that she may not be able to continue with her medications anymore, which she has already stopped taking for the past month or so. This basically means that should the white blood cells shoot right back up again, she would not be able to use her current medication to bring it down anymore, less something happens to her liver.

I... don't know how to type on.

I haven't posted prayer requests for myself and my family here in a long time... sure do hope there are prayer warriors out there who will continue to keep us in prayer:

1. For Dori, that she'll be strong especially through this period of time when she'll no doubt have doubts, questions... for His strength to be upon her, that she'll have the faith to fight on in this journey, to embrace the promises that God has laid down for her, that she'll be able to go about everything with the peace that surpasses all understanding that is in Christ Jesus.
2. For His extra portion of grace to be upon me as I face the many students in school, that He'll lay upon me the compassion to see each one of them as unique individuals, dearly loved, especially when I meet apathetic ones who don't care who you are and what you teach... that He'll empower me to be a testimony.
3. Also that He'll grant me the discipline to spend time with Him in His Word... and to space out my schedules properly so that I'll be able to finish my work on time, especially my design jobs.

When the oceans rise and thunders roar...
I will soar with You above the storms...
Father You are King over the flood...
I will be still and know You are God...