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I'm at home now sitting in front of the laptop gobbling down a packet of fried bee hoon for lunch meant for breakfast... one of the ways of saving money. Heh heh.

Thought I'll jot an entry before I start work on some projects that are overdue.

This area of my life has always been a struggle... a struggle not to procrastinate, a struggle not to be a bad testimony in front of clients. And weirdly so, the spirit is willing but the flesh is weak. Which is one of the reasons why I know that design can never be the area that I'm called to full time... I realised that I cannot put my heart and soul into the product of others somehow. This is no excuse though for all the time extensions... and for that, I apologize to all my past and present clients for all the inconveniences caused. And haha... to Ryan my design partner, sorry for all the headaches I've caused - I'm really not sure how things will move on from here, but for all the projects that we'll be involved in together, I hope I'll buck up. Hee.

I don't find that when it comes to teaching in school. Funnily enough as an introvert, though it's much easier to hide in front of the computer monitor all day to work than to stand in front of classes and fight the fear of communicating to large crowds, I find that there is greater satisfaction in doing the latter... and I must say, once you get to know the crowd it's a different feeling altogether. :)

Thankful for the individuals that I've come to know a little bit more from each of the classes... Hahaha. Just thought of a rather nonsensical analogy... but I guess it'll convey the message:

Level 1: A KFC counter waiter takes your orders and serves you your chicken, just like he'll serve every other single customer. The same way.

Level 2: He notices your preference as a regular customer and suggests new items on the menu, even teaches you how to eat your chicken in the best possible way.

Level 3: He takes time off the counter and sits beside you to have a chat to know you while you eat your chicken.

(lovingly corrected by a dear brother heh)
Level 3: He sits beside you after work and have a chat to know you while you eat your chicken.

Hahaha... Gosh I'm amused by myself.

One of them mentioned that I'm a good man.

I told him that I have a good God.

Who, as God of the universe, has shown His love to me as an individual, demonstrated on the cross of Calvary, washing away my stains, making me whole, so that I may present myself pleasing to Him and to others, covering my sins past, present, future, exchanging my life for His, that I may live this life not out of my own strength but by His empowerment and sustenance.

"For Christ did not send me to baptize but to preach the gospel, and not with words of eloquent wisdom, lest the cross of Christ be emptied of its power." - 1 Corinthians 1:17

And I'll trust that He has His time for each one.

希望有一天。:)