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Lalala... 'tis a low key in camp training - got to stay out most of the days except for Wednesday; we're setting out early on Thursday, that's why.

It's nice to see familiar faces... and I must say that I'm thankful that I'm placed in a sub-unit small enough for both the officers and men to know one another. :)

We had rifle technical handling test today... and I realised that I still have performance anxiety syndrome - almost fumbled during the weapon stripping and assembling portions. :| But yeah... eventually pulled through. :)

Four more days! XD

(vibes)

In psychoanalysis, there is this term called transference in which a person perceives the other based on his or her previous encounters with others with similar "makeups".

I find myself doing that and banding certain youths based on my encounters with them and matching them to previous encounters with others.

Sometimes I know that certain thoughts are really unfounded... but you just get that helpless feeling nonetheless, knowing the possibilities of them journeying down certain directions that they may not even be aware of themselves. Not that these directions are entirely bad... but still, it boils down to the age-old tension between the you-have-to-go-through-it-to-learn versus the you-can-do-away-with-them... Haha. Either way, I guess I'll just have to trust in God's sovereignty over each of their lives... even though they have yet to be reconciled... even though they'll never know that I'm praying for them.

It's really difficult to put certain things across... especially when I'm a guy and saying it out can make it sound totally off and wrong... but, yeah.

老师爱你们。

And ultimately... I guess it's a matter of trusting that they'll be fine eventually bah. :)

Alright I guess I should get some sleep before heading back to camp again in the morning. Till then. :)