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:( :( :( :( :(

啊我的天啊！

My own house is a disaster zone - I've never seen floor tiles so dirty before... litter sprawling around... sob sob. Thankful my room wasn't that bad. BUT...

There's going to be so much cleaning to do before we can start shifting stuff back. :(

So many things to clear, so much shifting, so much planning... :(

Any kind souls around who'll like to help clean or/and shift? No CIP points though...

And we have to complete our shifting by the 15th cause aunt has called a cleaner to clean up our current place of lodging on the 17th.

:(

There goes my December 2007. Boohoooooooooo.

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One more day to December! Reflection month! Since things are getting busier (irony upon irony that I should be working so hard when everyone else' in the holiday mood boo) I guess it'll be good to start writing earlier in small chucks, as much as I'm given time to do a little reflection here and there.

First off, a little recap of today's proceedings. Felt like a dodo for a while... Read about SITEX the annual tech fair on Straits Times and decided to go take a look in hope of getting some extra storage space at a cheap price. Took a bus to town... walked all the way to Suntec Convention Hall. Went up to the exhibition halls... there's this exhibition going on on one level and it was all quiet at the topmost level.

Then I realised that I might have gotten the venue wrong. Texted gpp... hais. So it's held at Singapore Expo. :|

Initially wanted to forget about the whole thing, walk around and return home... but yeah. I ended up at Singapore Expo an hour later.

Got what I was looking for though... worthwhile trip! Bought printer cartridges at cheaper prices too... give NTUC shopping vouchers some more! Hahaha...

But yeah. This month's balance is in the reds. Those things I bought were paid from my own savings... and after many rounds of pacing up and down the vendor area. Heh... oh well. It's a matter of constant trust. And hopefully there'll be bonus in December... hope hope. Not to mention the loss of monthly rental fees... am going over to collect the keys later on. Funny though... I'm a bit excited at the prospect of moving back to my own room. :)

Ah. It's time to go over soon... Guess I'll write in another entry. Till then!

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News of the dragon boat tragedy that resulted in the loss of the lives of five very promising young men has been the talk of the town the past few days... as of today, a combined memorial service was held in honor of them before they enter their final rite of passage here.

It's heart breaking to read through all the messages and eulogies left by friends and loved ones on their Friendsters and memorial blogs.

But one thing that consistently shone... are the legacies that they've left behind, young as they were (20 - 31), how through this brief span they've touched so many with their lives and the way they'd lived.

I heard from Ivan my school's administrator that Mr. Stephen Loh was from his church. Actually I wouldn't have blogged about this if I hadn't gone to his memorial blog again just now... Tears started dripping as I read what his students had left for him.

Stephen... I draw inspiration from you. In all my dealings with my students I will remember what I've read about you... thank you for paving the way, for setting an example. Till we meet again when that day comes, this I can safely say. God bless you, brother. :)

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If only it can be eaten. *crunch crunch crunch*

Hahahahhaa. :P

I feel a little stupid; the 300 or so copies of the album have been in those boxes in my room for quite some time... I used to get quite a number of requests... then it stopped somehow.

It dawned on me some weeks ago that I had taken off the details on how to obtain copies of the album quite some time back. Diao diao right.

Now that I've gotten the details back up, requests are coming in again... Should be sending about 27 copies out next week. Hope that He'll use them to bless. :)

Mmmm. Finished recording vocals for the last song this evening at the studio. What's left to be done: mastering of the songs and album eventually, album production, design... Hope to get it done by the first quarter of next year bah. This album is meant to be sold... advanced order anyone? :P

The meeting this morning in school went well. I was giving thanks actually as I was walking along the pathway after the meeting... how I'm blessed with a rather good boss who isn't condescending... who's pretty much willing to lend a helping hand since I can get quite clueless at times. Haha... yeah. Lots of work to do on top of setting up the online system - this being the first year not just for me but also for the centre, I am tasked to come up with all the relevant SOPs (Standard Operating Procedures), yadda... seriously. On one hand it's an exciting season for me... on another I know I'll definitely feel more at ease doing something that has been done before or taking up some person's portfolio, etc. Aye. I really didn't expect the prophetic word to be so accurate - a brother (I forgot who) did mention in the past that it seems that I'm called to pioneering work... it's like. ZEN ME KE NENG?!?!! (HOW CAN IT BE?!?!)

It's going to be a difficult December... but time still has to pass yeah. I just hope that in the midst of all the busyness I'll not neglect what's not to be neglected. :)

(Losing doesn't make losers... Winning doesn't make winners)

The volleyball guys lost their match against Victoria School.

They lost by very, very close margins on both sets.

I wasn't there for the match, but going by the looks of the margin difference, I can imagine that they would have fought hard... very hard, against a formidable team.

Sure, perhaps there might have been slips here and there. Perhaps they might have given away free points even through mistakes... but knowing how much they've trained and how much they really wanted to win, disappointment and devastation would have come naturally... and they did.

But I'm sure they'll pick up pretty quickly once again... for it is in that fighting spirit that they're winners.

Jiayou guys. ;)

I for one... refuse to be a loser no matter what the circumstance is... regardless of all the losing situations that I've been in.

Thank God for the ultimate victory in Christ, that I am more than a conqueror in Him who loves us.

A lot of people think that finding contentment in God means living a substandard life of non-pursuing (since I'm already contented).

Actually, contentment in God drives you to be discontented for the way things are for Him... and not for self. And you'll find yourself motivated in life to do all things to the best of your ability not for personal glory but unto His.

And the beautiful thing about this... is that when that becomes your ambition to glorify God all in all, you'll find that you're able to accomplish much more than you can ever imagine, because you'll be borne by strength not of your own... but of His.

Of course, the danger lies in the shifting of focus to self once accomplishments set in and one starts to rely on self rather than Him... and in the worst case, it winds up being self glorification.

He gives, He takes away... blessed be the name of the Lord.

"As for me and my house... We will serve the Lord" - Joshua 24:15

Mmm. Reflection's always good... this time round, I've uncovered the reason to do my best again. Thank You Papa. :)

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It can be quite galvinly impossible to pull this off... this whole thing of exploring, learning and setting up a new content management system before the new school term.

And that's amidst all the other planning, orientation included.

And that's besides the other projects that I have to finish.

And that's apart from shifting house.

Apart from the need to keep family finances on the floating level.

Woots.

Wooohooooooo. :P

I shall make a mental note of the smile and gratitude and I'll be having when the new year comes... knowing that He'll bring me through yet another season.

But yeah. Faith and trust comes in when you're in the midst of the process.

Shall sleep and recharge myself before continuing with the exploration of the system later on.

Hope they'll (the vb guys) win the match later on... after which they'll be in the top four at least. Gogogo! ;)

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There are about 300 copies left of this album to be distributed. Interested parties, do drop me an email here with the following details:

1. Full Name
2. Contact Number
3. Mailing Address
4. Number of Copies

This album is available to you at no cost. However, it will be much appreciated if you will consider to make a contribution to cover costs (production, postage, etc). :)

For more information, please visit the "My Songs" section. Thanks!

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Photos will have to be up together with the actual event later on... just leaving a quick one before I take a quick shower and hit the bed - got to wake up real early later on.

Just want to use this entry to commemorate the realization of two of my wishes this very day... Haha I know they ain't anything huge, may sound frivolous even, but it's really something that's quite significant to myself.

Those two wishes were one, that someday I'll jog from home to school... and two, that someday I'll jog from school to botanical gardens.

I was lamenting to Char how I didn't get the time to jog this past week... then she suggested the brilliant idea of me jogging to botanical gardens for the senior web prayer retreat recce while she takes a bus there and wait for me. And so... we decided to try it out.

Not bad at all... hur. Reached school in 50 minutes, took another 20 minutes or so to the final destination. One word to sum it up... shioook. xD

Spent the rest of the saturday morning with Char, Markudesu and Sue walking round the gardens... ending off with a lazy lunch.

Caught the ACJC drama production - "Arabian Nights" at ACS Barker in the evening together with the rest of the WG - the costumes that Gabriel designed were marvellous! The performance ended late though... and I was hit by a sudden hunger pang. Adjourned to Newton Food Centre to have a little something to eat before heading home.

And now off to the showers I shall go... and off to bed thereafter.

May the guys win the match later on in the morning. :)

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... but I'm pressing on. Yeah. :)

Spent the past couple of hours fiddling with some server configurations with the hope of properly setting up a local server to test out some web installations I'm trying to evaluate for next year's scope of work. From the setting up of the local server to the actual applications themselves... everything's kind of 'new' to me... well. Tried to set it up but I'm currently back to square one.

Can't afford to fiddle around with it now anymore 'cos it's late... got a meeting in school in the morning before a project group meeting with one of my ThinkQuest groups. Then I'm off to SouthWest CDC at Woodlands Civics Centre for an interview to see if they'll be able to help cover part of Dori's medications for her leukemia condition...

Still have some documentations to prepare for the interview.

And two projects that I ought to be finishing.

If He carried the weight of the world upon His shoulders... I know He'll carry me through all these. Ah wells... still human, still get pek chek sometimes... frail... humpf humpf. Shall go take a shower before preparing the documents.

Will appreciate if you can afford a prayer to Pa for me. :)

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...that I felt really good this morning in school when one of my students acknowledged me a couple of times each time we met... when the bunch of basketball guys called out to me from the court while I was walking back to the library from the canteen... when one of my other students passed me a packet of chocolates he bought from his overseas exchange programme out of the blue at the library (though I guess it probably wasn't meant for me in the first place... it's really very out of the blue).

As in... I felt appreciated through these gestures... yeah. :)

Haha... and yeah. Final session of IDT (Intentional Discipleship Training aka I Daily Touched) today... spent quite some time after work today to revise the stuff before the final term checkup. Did pretty okay... half a mark less than my dear Char. Haha... Spent the rest of the time at her place finishing up the last few episodes of Sassy Girl Chun Hyang... ended up getting home pretty late.

If everyday can just be this simple... and nice. :)

PSALM 23 (from memory)

The LORD is my shepherd, I shall not be in want.
He makes me lie down in green pastures, he leads me beside quiet waters, he restores me soul.
He guides me in paths of righteousness for his name's sake.
Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil, for you are with me; your staff and your rod, they comfort me.
You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies; you anoint my head with oil, my cup overflows.
Surely goodness and love will follow me all the days of my life, and I will dwell in the house of the LORD forever.

PSALM 121 (from memory)

I lift up my eyes to the hills - where does my help come from?
My help comes from the LORD, the Maker of heaven and earth.
He will not let your foot slip - he who watches over you will not slumber;
indeed, he who watches over Israel will neither slumber nor sleep.
The LORD will watch over you - The LORD is your shade at your right hand;
the sun will not harm you by day nor the moon by night.
The LORD will keep you from all harm - he will watch over your life;
The LORD will watch over your coming and going both now and forevermore.

... and I thank You Lord.

For You are good... and Your love endures forever... and Your faithfulness continues through all generations. Amen.

This is my favourite song in the drama... 응급실 - eung geub shil - Emergency Room:

huhoe hago issoyo
uri tatuteon keu nal
kwaenhan chajunshim ttaemune
kkeut na chago mareul hae peorin goya

keumbang pol chul arasseo
nal chajgil paraesseo
heona myeochili chinado
amu soshik chocha opso

hangsang naege neomu chalhae cheoseo
swipge sanggakhaess na pwa
ijen ara nae kochib taemune
himteurossteon noreul

I paboya chintcha aniya
ajikdo nareul keurohke molra
noreul kajin sarang na pakke ops neunde
chebal nareul tteona kachima

onjerado nae pyeoni toejun neo
komaun chul moreugo
cheol opsi na meosdaero hangeo
yongseo halsu ops ni

I paboya chintcha aniya
ajikdo nareul keurohke molra
noreul kajin sarang na pakke ops neunde
chebal nareul tteona kachima

neo hanaman sarangha neunde
idaero nareul tugo kachima
nareul peorichima keunyang kkok anajwo
tashi sarang hage torawa..

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It's been a long day.

Projects left untouched. Deadlines dragged... and still unable to lay hands on them. Part of it's due to inertia... but the bulk of it lies in my recent impossible schedules.

Then there's the paperwork for Aunty Witwit's transfer to our name - her renewal of work permit and all... I've been going to and fro bukit timah plaza quite a number of times for that.

I've also received news that my little desire to have a scope of work included in my jobscope will most likely not be realised. There's a little struggle and dejection... but ultimately I must learn to entrust all this to Pa. Basically... I don't think I'll be able to have any direct working relationship with my sec one boys this year. I'll be reunited with quite a number of the current sec two going on sec three boys though... quite a substantial number.

It's still a little daunting to know that I'm going to work with the cream of the cream of the crop... but yeah. Hope I'll be able to ease into the role in time to come.

Spent the bulk of the day at Focal Pro Audio Solutions studio located at Joo Chiat... recorded vocals for two out of the three songs left. Left me quite drained at the end of the day... but yeah. Really thankful that brother Patrick's around - and it's a super huge privilege and honor to have him lend his vocals to do backing vocals for the two songs today. To me he's a great example of what it means to exercise his God given talents and gifts with utmost humility... it's really a very refreshing feeling to be in the presence of His humble servants. :)

Yeah... really tired though.

And I can really make do with having myself detached from certain issues and individuals. Given the same Galvin years ago, I might have been drained off totally for being overly concerned over others who wouldn't even care.

And then I realised... that I'll just have to trust Pa to link me up with those who'll respond... and as for those whom I find difficult to communicate with and those who just don't wish to respond... I'll have to learn to surrender them unto His hands... and call it a day on my side.

And that's part of personal soul care I guess. :)

Here're two clips of Patrick singing... Imba to the fullness can. :P

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Just came back from Yvonne & Ron's wedding dinner not too long ago... Really happy for them. :) As Yvonne walked down the red carpet with Ron towards the stage, there was this sudden feeling of being touched and thankful... that I've been blessed with a class that manages to stay pretty close so many years down the road.

You know, junior college life's been filled with many wonderful memories of just enjoying one another's company, crapping, chatting... Yvonne's one of the student councilor in our class then. Petite in size but fully packed with cheerfulness and bubbliness. Haha... who can forget the way she giggles as if she's having an asthma attack *hur hur hur hur - deep breathing deep breathing - hur hur hur... * Hahaha...

There were no blogs then... but being half a computing class, we came up with our very own online class journal, which we actively write in till today. In retrospect, I think that's a major reason why we still stay so connected till now. I guess classes nowadays have the advantage of many tools to help them stay in touch... and as for our class then... it's really something to be thankful for. :)

Yuntian's the next in line... 20 Sep 2008. She's been actively asking us to attend both the church wedding and evening dinner - from sitting at the table just now to her latest post in the journal.

Xinyu: Yah lor... you advertise the whole night not enough must still advertise on journal...

Yuntian: cos u guys are important guests to me mah hehehe :P

That feeling of being touched and thankful came back again. Haha.

And so... I added a little paragraph:

Hahaha... frankly. u guys are du yi wu er. irreplaceable. i'm never good at articulating myself... but to put it simply, i can have friends in different circles... but this bunch will always be one tt's really cherished and much treasured.

Really touched to see Yvonne zhao dao hao gui su. 99S31... jiu shi 99S31 le lar ah. :)

:)

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These parodies speak volumes.

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Came back from my Saturday jog... mmm. Refreshing. :) Having RT off my schedules means that I'll have to take extra efforts to make sure I have sufficient work out each week... discipline. Heh.

When it comes to pull ups, it's easy to get a few more counts if you do it improperly, as in, you do not do the full motion before you attempt the next pull up. It's a resolution in the coming year for me to attempt to achieve a decent number of counts for proper pull ups... the count stands at three for now.

It can be pretty daunting when you've done two and you let yourself hang there on the bar... your mind starts to wonder if you can manage another one. So far so good... hopefully I'll break three to make four next week. :)

I am unfit la okay. Hahaha.

Raymond, a dear brother, turns 30 this year. Gpp and I celebrated for him a couple of days ago... and something that he wrote on his blog caused me to pause and nod in agreement:

I gave me the best gift of salvation when I was at the tender age of 15. I lived the next 15 years of my life with the new found faith and understanding of the Lord Almighty... Learning to be obedience to Him. Struggling through my sinful nature whom keep wanting to take control to the temporary happiness instead of striving for eternal joy.

The schemes of the evil one not can be, but is insidious and highly delusional in a sense that he makes the wrong look like the norm.

And as a result we tend to pursue transient happiness more often than not. Happiness that will not last... pleasures that'll last only for the moment. We set our goals and directions in line with temporary prizes, only to find that there's more and more to garner and laud over when we've reached our preplanned destination. Money. Power. Sex.

As one grows in his relationship with God, he'll find his perspectives of things change, his life "transformed", not that he's suddenly blessed with much wealth and health, but that he'll learn to see things from heavenly perspectives... and when that happens, certain things and goals that might have mattered in the past will not matter that much anymore.

He'll learn how to be content not in his situations and circumstances but in God, not that he'll end up slacking off, but he'll be constantly seeking His directions and moving as He leads, which can be really exciting. (*cough cough... personal experience. Haha*)

A great misconception and lie (told you the devil's pretty crafty) is that life will be free from struggles and suffering when someone follows after God wholeheartedly. The truth is far from that.

Where sinful nature resides together with the Holy Spirit in the body, there'll always be a constant battle in the heart and mind, a constant tussle in which one will be given the power to choose. Whereas it may be really hard to attain to the point of winning all the time without struggles, a constant struggling marks a healthy life in Christ, as it shows reality of the battle inside.

The scariest is when one engages in sinful acts and finds no sign of struggle or tussle within him.

Still... I hope for myself that the day will come (as in, before He comes again) when I will be able to stand in victory without that much of a struggle inside. And I'm reminded again that the way to do that isn't so much of focusing on battling those things and thoughts... but casting my eyes on Jesus over and over again, seeking Him, His Kingdom and His righteousness... falling in that love over and over and over again.

Aye. It's supposed to be a quick one. :| Hahaha... bleah bleah bleah.

thank God for three (One still in Oz land) very unique brothers that I met in the net through blogging. You guys taught me the meaning of friendship without expectation. You guys are always ready to pray and interact for each other even though most of us dun belong to the same church. Except Galv and me.

Thanks Galv and Chewy for preparing and planning the surprise dinner. Seriously, it didn't come across my mind that you guys are meeting me for dinner to celebrate my big 30. Thanks for blessing me with such a yummy chocolate cake.

WELCOME!!! 5 more years for me!!! XD

Once again I look upon the cross where You died
I'm humbled by Your mercy, I'm broken inside
Once again I thank You
Once again I pour out my life
And I thank You for the cross
Thank You for the cross
Thank You for the cross, my Friend...

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I had lunch with 5 & 6 today at Holland Village. Mmm. It's been quite some time since we've sat down to eat and chill... the three of us. I kind of anticipated the silence in the beginning... was smiling at myself. Haha... but didn't exactly have the "oh no what's next" feeling...

Then the conversations began.

I'm thankful in a way for the things that's transpired... I consider these times as precious moments, where I can hear them speak their mind and provide a little personal input. As to whether they have any take homes that'll benefit them, I'll just have to leave it to Pa I guess. :)

Could have gone on a little longer... but I was late for my next appointment. Didn't expect our conversation to last that long... so when I checked the time on my phone, it showed the time of my supposedly next meeting. I was close to being freaked out. Hahaha... thank God for sending that cab in the midst of the many occupied ones. :)

Today I finally got my permanent job scope fixed... at least for next year. All I can say right now is that I am really venturing into uncharted waters, with no predecessors before me, no upperstudy whom I can learn from, no systems in place... it's very much a pioneering work. On one hand I feel kind of excited... but I must confess the fear and trepidation part as well. The scope of work's requiring me to step out of my comfort zones totally, in terms of sourcing for resources, working with others, speaking out... Mmmm.

He's brought me thus far.

And so... what can I do... but to trust... right? :)

And yeah. As if there wasn't enough on the list... I actually requested for more work. Crazy boy right... but yeah. I did. And to a bunch of people, it may be good news... but well, who knows? Haha... If anything, I am looking forward to that, should that portion of my job scope for next year be finalised as well.

Don't ask for more clues... I've dropped enough. Hahaha...

Alright. Time to sleep. Oyasuminasai. :)

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THANKFUL
09 November 2007

I can't imagine how
My life would end up being without You
You came in just in the nick of time
Should it happen a few years late
I might have traversed beyond the point of no return
Thinking that's the way to go

I didn't ask for this
The way I am, I see, I touch and feel
But just somehow, it came to be
Still it feels like a mystery
How the power of Your love caused me to see
And eventually set me free

Lord I thank You for Your grace
In Your Presence Lord I stand amazed
With a life transformed in Jesus
I will stand and testify
Of Your love
And the joy it is to be in Christ

I'm not a super being
I'm frail, I'm weak, I make mistakes, I fall
And boy, I struggle darn whole lot
Mercy falls on the undeserved
That once again I may stand upright and walk
With the light unto my path

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Ho ho ho... Cooking ain't easy. :| Haha... Am at Char's place now, about to finish cooking the last piece of pa jeon - Korean pancake. The first few pieces were disasters... it wasn't till the last few when I finally achieved that crispy texture. And and and... I kind of had my fill when I tried to finish off the rejects. :| Haha... now Char's in the kitchen finishing up the last step for her jiao zis... and we can finally have our dinner... after three hours of prep work.

Haha... taxing, but quite fun. But I guess it'll be a luxury to have such times in the future... must remind myself that it's time to be made. :)

Took down about half a wall of photos this morning and scrapped off the blutac... beginning to visualise how these photos can be arranged back in my own room when we shift back this december... heh. My room spots the same colour combination as that with Island Creamery... Maroon and light brown. Hur. On one hand I really can't wait to return to that room... but I'm kind of dreading the shifting process. But yeah. Nothing beats your own room and your own home... and hopefully I'll really have my own home say, two years down the road? HUR. :P

Okay. Time to eat. :)

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It's been a really refreshing week reading A. W. Tozer's book. "The Pursuit Of God" comes in an omnibus version together with two of Tozer's other books, which I bought over from a sister in Christ some years back. Gems they are... but somehow I left them sitting by the bookshelf collecting dust. :| But yeah. Really thankful to have read it this week. Hailed as one of the classics, it indeed is a "A MUST READ for every genuine follower of Christ". In fact, anyone who wants to gain an insight into the realness of the faith should have a read.

The good thing is that it's available online... for those who want it in a pdf format, you can download it by clicking here.

THE PURSUIT OF GOD - A. W. TOZER
The Christian Classic - One of the top 10 spiritual books in the world

CONTENTS

Introduction
Preface

1. Following Hard After God
2. The Blessedness of Possessing Nothing
3. Removing the Veil
4. Apprehending God
5. The Universal Presence
6. The Speaking Voice
7. The Gaze of the Soul
8. Restoring the Creator-Creature Relation
9. Meekness and Rest
10. The Sacrament of Living

Don't wait too long to read... who knows what'll happen. :)

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Took my final RT IPPT this evening... I failed again. :| Actually, there was a huge chance that I could pass... but well. I met my nemesis yet again called Standing Broad Jump. I think I'm going to have phobia of the number 189 - my jumps have been that consistent.

I need to jump at least 210cm to pass. :|

There was so much hope when I passed shuttle run... that perhaps I could finally pass IPPT for the first time in my life. Hahaha... looks like it's got to wait. But mmm. It'll come! :P

Scored 'A' for 2.4km!! First time... won't be the last! Thank You Papa! XD

Spent the bulk of the afternoon with some of my students... ate lunch and caught a movie. Enjoyed the time spent with them. :) But yeah, I'm now a bit haunted by the 'boo!'ing from one of them. This guy kept coming up in front of me and played 'boo!'. Ya. Thirteen year old going on fourteen. SO UNBECOMING RIGHT.

Hahaha... yeah. Will be nice to see them grow, don the college uniform... graduate. Yeah. Nice.

And that isn't exactly a wish anymore.

Because it came true. :)

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I hold on my hand this day a tremendous piece of God's faithfulness.

On this day, the 31st of October 2007, I signed the letter of appointment.

From 1 January 2008, I will be an official teaching staff. Permanent official teaching staff.

For those of you who know the story, you will probably understand how I'm feeling right now.

All odds were against me given a teaching appointment due to my qualifications, or rather, the lack thereof.

The way He fulfills the desires of my heart... haha.

:')

And the increase in salary more or less offsets the loss of house rental fee from next month onwards. Which means no net loss of present income for the family. :)

Char and I had dinner at Buddy Hoagies, this western eating place at Bukit Timah Shopping Centre. One of my boys' working there as a cook... so we decided to drop by.

We had a great time... the food's nice and pretty affordable. And it's nice to see how this boy's applying the skills that he's learning... and I'm definitely glad to see how he's finally gotten some directions ahead of him. :)

Sometimes I wonder what's the chief end when it comes to working with youths in a youth ministry context. I've seen people come and go... and sometimes it can be quite emotionally draining on my part to see how they've chosen to take paths contrary to what I hope they'll take... but yeah. I've come to accept that in the midst of pointing people to Jesus, I am called to be a genuine friend.

And for this boy... I'm just glad that there's a skill that he can use, things for him to do, a direction for him to move towards. As for whether he'll return to the flock in the future, I'll have to trust that it's all in His sovereign hands.

When he knew we ordered a waffle with ice cream, he came out of the kitchen and said he'll make it personally and make sure it'll turn out crispier.

"Ya... because you like crispy stuff mah. Don't think I forget."

My heart melted at that point. It really did. :)

Returned to catch a few more episodes... and yeah, I made a mistake, it's not "My Sassy Girl" but "Sassy Girl Chun-Hyang". Haha... if the drama's ever a reflection of real life, I'm just thankful that my relationship with Char isn't that complicated.

There are so many things that I really hope I can articulate so you may catch a glimpse of the kind of grace God's lavishing in my life... but yeah. :P

Sarang Hae Yo...

To You... and you. :)