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I've been putting off writing this entry for some time... I can't exactly pinpoint the reasons to this inertia... but yeah, I'm back. :)

I've been waiting... waiting for a turning point somewhere down the road the past months, a defining moment of sort - it hasn't really been the best of seasons; I lived through a terribly undisciplined season, not just spiritually, but really in all aspects. There were days in the boarding school apartment where I gave up ample amount of sleep because I was onto some work which I wanted to complete... and as a result I was unable to function fully the next day.

Yesterday was one such day. I ended up not being able to concentrate during the counselling seminar that May (my school's full time counsellor) signed up for me and another colleague as part of the counselling team... kept dozing off. :|

The person most affected would had been Char; met up with her to spend the evening with her... and she had to bear that dead-pan look of mine... well. Thankful it ended off well though. :) She threw me a surprise that I didn't manage to catch beforehand! Haha... we caught "Catching Adam Cheng" at the Action Theatre. I caught a little news on this local play over Channel Newsasia some weeks ago while commuting on the bus... never thought I'd actually catch it! Didn't communicate the thought of wanting to watch it to Char or whatsoever... so it's pretty amazing how we ended up catching it! Haha... yeah, catching dramas... that'll be one of our nice pastimes. :)

Returned home and crashed immediately after showering. It's Aunty Witwit's day off today... so it's my turn to look after mom. Am actually typing this in her room right now with her looking at me... heh. I showed her High School Musical 1 & 2 on the laptop in the morning! Haha... I was on the other computer looking through my past entries (those in 1999) and categorizing them... it was quite a surreal feeling. It was really reading through the entries of a person of the past... was quite appalled by my own worldview back then! And all the pompous and superfluous vocabularies... hahaha. I think most of my boys write so much better than I did back then!

Reading them brought back memories... mostly good ones (thankful!). I relived some school scenes back in those days of 99S31... brought some smiles to my face. :)

One thing that's outstanding from my writings back then though... is that I found myself to be really self-absorbed. Talk about empathy... I myself didn't have much back then as well, and here I am fretting over the boys not being empathetic to the people and situations around them... is it really a phase of life that all teenagers go through? Mmmm I guess in the end it's circumstantial bah. They should all grow up alright. Haha... :)

Everytime I look back... I'm just thankful that He's the God of the second chances.

As with this entirely new design without a tinge of the previous beige one and its similar-colored predecessor that lasted the past five years or so... here's a new chapter in the life of someone who knew he could never make it in this life without his Maker watching over him.

:)