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I shall post an entry before I call it a day.

I don't really know how to explain the stage where I'm in at this point of time. I sure do hope that it's not melancholy or anything of the sort... it's just that, I'm like at a point that I'm identifying so many blessings that He's given and yet not finding the strength to give back.

I question if it is work; yes, I still do spend time with the boys... but much of the time has been spent of late churning out documents upon documents instead in front of my computer. And even if it's time spent with them... it still doesn't justify how I've been neglecting others.

Today Char and I met up with Faith, our wedding coordinator, and Jacq, our florist and decor designer for the wedding venue. Faith has been a really wonderful coordinator, looking into details and making sure that we're on schedules along the way. We're really excited to see what Jacq would make of the decorations and floral arrangements that day... and just when we were going to go into budget discussion, we were given a hint that it would be taken care of... and I don't really have to guess much as to who's contributing.

Then we went off to Mark & Sue's place for a little birthday gathering for Mark... had a sumptuous home cooked meal and stayed on to play two of the board games that he has. As we're walking to catch a cab back, they offered to settle certain aspects of our preparations, knowing how daunting it can be as everything adds up.

And the various individuals who've offered their help in one way or another...

And the greatest earthly blessing that He's given... there's this constant nag to know that I've not been giving Char all that she deserves of late - it's been pretty hard to spend time together the way we did during the holidays, with both of us equally taxed in our respective workplaces... the consolation and joy that I hear from her is that she's gotten a rather good class and had a rather good start with them... but I know that the lack of quality time spent together is causing her strain.

Well... I'm learning to trust in the things that's He's redepositing into my heart... and I know just what I need to do... as I was writing the second paragraph to this entry, it was spoken.

That I need to be filled in order to give not out of my own strength.

And I'm given the choice... as always.

I'm coming back to the heart of worship... and it's all about You.. it's all about You, Jesus...

And I was wondering why 5 would message me all of a sudden asking for the chords and lyrics to that song when he could get them himself.

All things piece together... don't they?

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I have this feeling that 90% who reads this entry won't understand what it's saying. Hahahaha...