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It's close to 9pm and I'm currently feeling rather drained... I guess I ought to exercise a little self discipline later and sleep as soon as I'm able to.

Rumination and mulling over issues are the things that I can be susceptible to... let's just say that there were some unpleasantries that occured over the past few days (don't really know why they have to cramp together toward my in camp training? oh well...) and I being the cause of most of what happened. I am thankful for the forgiving environment... and yet at the same time I now have to contend with my own thoughts with regard to all these. I'm not sure how whatever happened would have caused the lost of trust, how the working relationship has been affected adversely... at the back of my mind I'm constantly telling myself that things are okay... but in reality, the war that goes on inside the brain can be rather draining.

Well... thank God for the time spent yesterday night with Char before I went for my first day of reservist today. I think it was the first time we'd actually walked that long a distance... had good dessert and then we continued walking again! Haha... and in the midst of it my chatty and ding dong (nonsensical) self surfaced... Haha. 77 DAYS!

:P

I wanted to write about my first day of reservist... in the end I ran out of time. :| Well, not much... just that I'm thankful that this new team that I'll be with seems rather cohesive. :) Shall look forward to the rest of it! :)