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It's ironic how I'm beginning to feel the 'heat' just when the school holidays have started for the boys! Things started off pretty okay, but now I'm really feeling the toughness of having to juggle amongst the many hats, between family, work and studies. I actually have an essay that's due today... but there was really not much opportunity for me to work on it the whole of last month! Boo... thankful for the two-week extension provision, but even so, I have another essay that would be due in another month's time... wouldn't want things to snowball in this fashion!

I really wonder how one of my bosses does it. Heard that he would arrive much earlier in his office to work on his thesis; his workload is quite unimaginable, plus he has his wife and children at home... then I've got another colleague who's got so much on her plate as well... yet she's fully functional. Well, in a way I guess I've to be thankful that He's placed people before me to pave the road. Didn't really expect this road ahead would be that tough, but I'll be hanging on by His grace. (=

I've got a friend who asked me what my dream job is. It's funny how I've often been the one asking my students what their ambitions are and what they really want to be next time... when I have yet to provide a definite answer myself. Haha... but thing is, if this question is asked of me in relation to any particular vocation, then I really won't have a definite answer.

I am already in my dream job. Not that the conditions are the most ideal, but I'm enjoying the nature of my interactions with the students. It is a blessing and privilege to be able to be in a mentoring role. It's by no means a coincidence that I was asked this question again just some hours back in the midst of my course lunch break... as to what my long term plans are. "Counsellor?" he asked. I pondered a little while before uttering the word, "Youth work". So it isn't so much about counselling in general that I could possibly be doing in the long run, but it's more of getting myself equipped in this area so as to be a more competent helper amongst the age group.

Someone once mentioned that my current job isn't one to be admired, or would it be one that's sought after. I must confess that sometimes I still do struggle in the flesh when it comes to pondering over the amount of work that I have to do versus the amount that I'm getting, but I do know that this is an area which I am called to be constantly surrendering to Him, resting in His provisions as I learn to do my part in His grand masterplan.

The guys from 1A'06 invited me to their year end dinner gathering together with their secondary two form teacher. It amazes me still how I've been given the chance to interact with some of them over the course of the four years, formally or informally. I was glad that I remembered the names of all who were present that evening, even more so to have seen them grown over the past four years. Of the eight classes that I took briefly for infocomm studies in their secondary one year, I seemed to have the most affinity with this class, mentoring some of them for projects here and there, for four years even for some of them! Haha...

Then I managed to head down to Hougang Sports Hall one of the days to catch HCVB 'B' Division in action. These guys are a special bunch; caught them in action first when they were in 'C' Division... and it's heartening to see how they're growing as a team. I've contemplated on many occasions to take them officially, seeing the potential in all of them to becoming all rounders not just in their sport, but academically and affectively as well... well. Not bad to be mentoring some of them already for a start? :P

I do look forward to the days when these guys grow up and become active contributors to society... I really do. Even with those peeps whom I'd got the privilege to lead some years back in WEB... it'll be interesting to see where God's gonna lead them in the future. In the meantime, I'm reminded once again to be faithful in the sowing or watering - He'll take care of the growth.

It's funny how I suddenly thought of some of them in the midst of my lesson this afternoon... and I started smsing some of them, asking about their end of year results. Zeb was the first to reply telling me he's scored rather well for his promos (quite expected la actually haha...) - he's been the bright spark amongst the lot and usually the quiet one; still quite hard to imagine that he's actively serving in his school's student council! Haha... (: in his reply he asked for a suitable date to meet up with him and the rest of the dg; shall look forward to the meetup! Then I actually bumped into him in town hours later after my lesson while I was on the way to meet Char for dinner... that's too much for a coincidence man. But yeah, it was great to be talking to him face to face. :)

This entry took the span of the entire day to be written - first on the way for my lesson, then a little more on the way to town for dinner after the lesson, and now finishing it up on the bed before I sleep. Time is getting scarcer and scarcer for any productive reflection to take place, for contemplation, for quiet time... I pray that Pa will grant me the heart first and foremost to want to make such times... and protect them. It is only then will we find more entries coming up as well. If you would, you could pray for me in this light.

Photos of the mentioned even will be up in due time. In the meantime... time to sleep! :)