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I'm beginning to see bits and pieces of what happened in the past coming back to haunt me in the way I work.

There's so much for me to learn, in the way of working together as a team.

... sorry.

Sometimes the melancholic side of me tells me to peel away and leave.

But I know it's a matter of adapting and learning.

I realise that most of my learning comes from bad experiences... haha well.

0

I have yet to pack for my trip.

I have yet to study for my test.

Things were pretty bad the day before.

I have this impression that I just got into some more colleagues' bad books because of my being concerned... a story that's quite complicated to tell.

Won't be surprised if word's going round that I'm too lenient and nice to the boys (another matter).

Then there was this administrative mayhem towards the end of the day... and I kind of got affected by it.

It really doesn't feel like I'm flying tomorrow morning... Haha.

Well. It'll definitely be a good getaway for personal reflection. :)

In the end... I probably am not the person for the job.

Haha well... guess I'll start studying. :)

0

Can anyone live passionately for Jesus and yet live a life unchanged... untransformed in His likeness...?

I am appalled... that such incongruence exists.

Either that... or the prior might just be a facade.

Why must I always learn things the hard way? Sigh... I took people's comments with a pinch of salt, believed that perhaps it really isn't so.

Till I have to have a taste of it's own for me to really understand it myself.

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I told Char I hope I could fly to the moon alone and stay there for a week.

I've been trying really hard to keep abreast.

I've never been in a season where I have a million and one things clamoring for my attention.

I bumped into a colleague just now and he asked me why I looked so grumpy.

I could only tell him that I've got lots to do.

But it really isn't about the doing.

I've tried to work round my schedules to craft time for and with Char. But I'm failing.. utter failure. It saddens me whenever I see her so affected. It saddens me when she has to inconvenience her just to be where I am. It saddens me that she's getting sick so often because of doing that.

I teared when my sister messaged me last night to ask if I'm going for 5's drama exams alone and when she informed me that tuesday's her hospital appointment. It has been ages that I've last accompanied her... and I know she needed me too.

Yesterday night the boarding masters had a meeting. My colleagues are concerned about my day offs, not knowing if it was right for them to cover my duties, concerned too that my boys would take it in the wrong light, concerned that some of my actions may jeopardize myself in the programme.

Then I have boys who seemingly are going against whatever that's set, not that they mean it. And I know for one, that there may be word going around that I've been too lenient, too soft. I really don't know how this has jeopardized possible good working relationships with certain colleagues.

Today, I received a mail with the subtle tint of blasting me off from a colleague due to a feedback I feedbacked.

It's funny that in this world, as much as you'll want to be out of politics, you are inevitably in it, not that you want to.

All the things I'm experiencing and causing me great discomfort, for the very reason that everything's contrary to the personality that I've grown up with.

I think I've mentioned enough times how I wished I never needed to grow into an adult... but I can see the areas of growth that God wants me to grow in this season of time.

He wants me to take responsibility. But far more to that, He wants me to trust in Him and cling entirely unto Him, not upon my own resources.

I'm learning.

But am I given the time and space?

Psalms 121 comes to mind - I lift up my eyes to the hills... where does my help come from? My help comes from the Lord, the Maker of heaven and earth. He does not let my foot slip... He neither sleeps nor slumbers... the Lord watches over you.. keeps you.

And I can only trust.

My thanksgiving comes in that Char decides to love me in spite of all the inconveniences that's caused to her.

That my sister's grown in her understanding of how her brother really wishes to spend time with her and yet is in a season of immense i-have-no-word-to-describe.

That God's blessed me with a boss who cares and listens and most importantly, believes in me.

That he's gotten an administrator to relieve me of my loads.

That I have my kakis who really care - Gpp who constantly keeps me in prayer, Raymond who just called to ask if I needed help to move stuff into the apartment, and Matty who drops msn messages here and there.

That most of my boys are understanding... and appreciative.

And ultimately... that I have a God who walks by me, lives in me... and works through me.

Will appreciate your prayers.

6

Sometimes I do wonder about the people dropping by this place...

I wonder if there are people who've been around catching up with my life... both who know me in person and those who don't... but never did leave any form of a marking here.

Perhaps leave a comment on this entry? Just knowing that you're around is a huge encouragement in itself.

(:

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My physical body finally gave up I guess... oh well. Skipped IDT today... think I shall sleep early for the first time in a really long time. It's a choice I know... and today I shall sleep before 12.

And subsequently take responsibility in taking care of my body... and that includes being consistent in exercising. It's taken a backseat since weeks ago. I don't know how many times I've actually jumpstarted exercise regimes... but I do hope that this time round it'll last a really long time... mmm. It's starting to get uncomfortable wearing jeans... oh well. Haha.

It's scary how time has become a rare commodity these days; there's simply no time to embark on things which I find meaningful (ie making the bookmarks)... and even engage in more meaningful interactions at work. This year's batch of sec ones are really good to teach... and somehow I feel that it's unfair for them... when it comes to the amount of time and effort I put in to know them. I know I won't have the luxury of time as before for the past two batches... well. As Pa leads ba. (:

My room bustled with activity the day before... I'm not sure why, but student traffic was HUGE yesterday... and I must say it's these unplanned and unassuming interactions, fun, lameness (haha...) that makes all the work worth the work... perks my day. Haha...

That's about it for now. I ought to sleep now. OH yes... I realised yesterday evening after receiving back my latest essay that I made a boo boo thinking I scored a "D" grade for my previous paper... turns out that it meant Distinction. LOL... Pa is good - 1 HD, 2 Ds with one more group paper to go which really looks like it'll get either the two grades... see how it goes for practicum, journal and final exam. Mugging mode needs to kick in real soon. It's more or less a 'final' leg of my studies for now - taking break off two semesters (on hindsight yes it's definitely a wise decision!) before continuing after the wedding next year.

Okay... that's all for a little update. Hope I can write and reflect more in time to come! Photos and what nots coming up real soon! :)

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I wish a button can be pushed and that I be put in hibernation mode. Haha...

When melancholy strikes, it strikes. Void of reasoning, just the feeling of heaviness. For the first time I almost wanted to raise my voice in class over what is but a common bout of distraction while I was speaking... and I almost didn't want to proceed to take photos.

Thankful for His grace. Managed to regain composure enough to finish what was set out to finish. Mmm.

There were many moments I stared at the computer screen today not knowing what to do... Sigh.

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I ought to apologize for my long absence. I'm sorry. There. This comes once in a while, sorta periodically [no... not period you moron], when yours truly simply run out of time and energy to stay glued to the screen just to write a journal entry [Read: Extreme Fatigue]. Somehow, my attention span seems to get shorter with the passing of each second. Maybe I should have gotten more sleep. There're simply too many things to do, or rather, I can't handle what others can. I don't see why there's a need to be depressed, though the gothic look of this site gives that sort of impressions, it's just a matter of stress and fatigue. Everyday, I would hope for an extended period of time where there's virtually nothing much better to do than to indulge in the myriad of bustling activities going on in slumberland. There ought to be some seams in this hectic schedule of mine to squeeze in extra resting sessions.

You should have noticed the degeneration of my linguistic skills by now.

Let's talk about...

ThinkQuest 1999. To be[satisfied] or not to be, that is definitely not the question to ask now. To me, the journey hasn't quite ended yet. The entry's submitted for judging. It should score well in all aspects(content, design, layout, educational value, et cetera) but there is still a possibility that it won't enter the finals. I guess I'd said in the earlier entries, that while other people progress geometrically, I plodded on like a snail. Unbelivable but true, there're lots more entries out there which are way better than my entry. Pray for me. To help out physically other than spiritually, kindly visit the website now, peruse the contents, scrutinize the intricacies(shame on me) of the design, participate in the forums and sign the guestbook under the about section. To those who find disappointment in my entry, I'm sorry I've let you down. Got to admit the design isn't really what I'm capable of churning. Blatantly speaking, I've sacrificed some designs for the benefit of highlighting the contents. Will anyone ever notice that? Nah... the design just isn't what I'm capable of doing.

Teachers' Day 1999. Fair enough, my secondary school teachers remembered who I am. Mrs Yeong remembered me as the big blob who defied her advice to study till the very last minute and skipped the A Math papers, not forgetting the one and only who stays in front of the computer everyday. Come to think of it, I owe her a million apologies. I should have juggled my time more efficiently. She asked me a very thought-provoking question, "Did you learn how to play any ball game finally?". I am the ball, Mrs Yeong. I'm kidding.

Generally speaking, it was a pretty cold and stale atmosphere. Somehow I just regretted visiting them. I'm not worth their rememberance. The soccer game salvaged the situation, really. I finally got to play my first soccer match this year. Thanks for the encouragement guys... especially Siaoz. Sorry to pose as a hinderance to your access to the soccer ball. ;) To match up, I lost my almighty school uniform for the first time. I'd apparently left it along the sidewalk while I changed into my t-shirt. Fatigue's gotten into me. I've to get a new school badge on Thursday. Sigh.

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Nothing special happened today. I stayed overnight in my aunt's house to help her finish processing her documents. I guess I should go now. Got a math book to finish. (Yes, I am the nerd who borrowed two math books from the library today...)

Food of the Day
Fried Bee Hoon.

Colour of the Day
Dull Black

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I ought to write this entry to repay the gratitude of my supportive readers. My humble apologies that I wasn't able to ramble [For I have yet reached the ultimate status of garrulously babblative] for the past two days (which might very well seem like eternity) for my mind was shrouded by nothing else but the immense amount of workload crushed upon my fragile existence by the impending deadline for ThinkQuest 1999. Ironically, this spell was cast upon by myself and till now it's still working its powers. In mortally terms, I should be dead by now. The best situation I can think of now is that I'm no less than a speckle of dust on the murky ground, awaiting levitation by some spirited soul who happens to thread past. I shouldn't be complaining. I had an exciting journey through the laborious path of ThinkQuest today and I should be bestowed upon beauty sleep, for tomorrow will be another journey, of a tougher genus, plagued with thorny tendrils and viscious vines.

There can only be decadence.

How much[and not many] things shall I sacrifice for thou,
my time, my studies, my friends? Don't you see how
you've chained me up, me! A prisoner? Loser?
The only way you can ever repay is to
allow the reaping of thy fruits, sweet and
juicy, that my coarse-driven throat is quenched to
the top. That it replenishes my long lost desire to
relight the fire, for the flaming light shines upon the
route to utopia.

I'm going to miss the class outing to Marina tomorrow.
*Sob* *Sob*

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Thinkquest Status
[OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO.......] 88.8%
Let's get auspicious.

Food of the Day
Char Siew & Roasted Meat Rice

Colour of the Day
White

0

Heck the innumerable reveries I slipped into today. Jaded I am. Got out of bed with a nose running like a lunatic. Skipped school again. Simply put. I am the trespasser of all rubrics.

Lament for me. I am in no mood to write.

Dad returned from Osaka today. He regretted his trip. Inevitably vented his accrued angst on us, letting the steam out slowly. Little explosions here and there now and then. He did try to put it nicely to us.

I'm exhausted. Totally.

Don't judge me.

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Photoshop hanged.
You have every right to blame Photoshop.
I was thinking of publishing the one with the shot tiger.
Too bad Photoshop had to hang on me.
Too bad.

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Thinkquest Status
[OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO.......] 85.0%
Search Engine.

Food of the Day
Cream biscuits in addition to a cup of instant coffee.

Colour of the Day
I'm seeing colours.

0

What if I fail to get into the ThinkQuest finals this year? Dubious feelings never come across as good fortune to me. This is one question which I hope I won't need to have an answer for.

A day till the targeted deadline.

I could have done better in school if not for ThinkQuest. Sad but true. I've dedicated too much time on ThinkQuest this year. Call it an addiction, but if it doesn't pay off, I'll be losing my entire year to oblivion. My only hope is that everyone in the team works really hard for it, and if you're the one whom you think you are, my only advice for you is to buck up. Prove your existence or I'll nullify you. I don't need you to materialise in front of me for me to prove my ability to nullify.

You're getting out of hand.

There's still hope though.

There's still Helen and me.

You send chills down my spine (a phrase etched in memory since primary school days).

Promises. High hopes. All these eventually lead to disappointment. The best way to start off a project is to have no obligations with whatsoever. Yeah. Got that. What the hell am I telling myself this stuff anyway. I won't ever have a chance at it anymore. I'll be concentrating on my A Levels next year which means no no to any intrusions meant to distract. After which I'll be enlisted into the Army. Maybe I'll be a coach then, but I'll never have a chance to savor the experience like I had last year anymore.

Thank you my friend. Just make sure you make a U-turn before heading towards the wrong direction too far off and wander into the land of my foes. By the way, the land's barren as yet. I don't think you'll like it there. You'll be damn lonely. Sorry but I guess I'm just too frank sometimes.

I'm dedicating the rest of the week to my Math and the studying of my Physics test. Let's see how much you can churn out by then. It's really justifiable for me to say that I really don't understand thee.

Sorry but I'm not in the mood to write today. I'm turning into a paraniod freak. Thanks to you.

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Where I Belong

Silk woven sky fills the backdrop in this
Island I call my home, dreams sparkling bright at
Night. One mighty cresent and five mingling stars
Grace the beauty of the night. People filled with
Aspirations densely populate, proud but never
Pompous. Shoppers' paradise indeed, a stroll down
Orchard Road brings about incredible sights.
Relax and slow down, take you time to explore our
Esplanade, just a significant dot on the map.

(Like I said, I'm not in the mood to write, yet I forced myself to do so, and here's this junk bound for wasteland...)

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Thinkquest Status
[OOOOOOOO...................] 35.0%

Food of the Day
KFC 2 Piece Chicken set meal
(Real fattening... I'll have to compensate)

Colour of the Day
Black

0

Ponder.

An uneventful week, in my point of view, escaped, leaving behind strands of nothingness.

Regret?

Sunday left me with a closer friendship bond with Qiao. Appreciate that. Monday left me with much regret and pain. Tuesday's lament day. Wednesday? Hardly remembered anything worth remembering. Oh.. Is being late for courses an event worth remembering? Humpf. At least I've got it well documented in my previous entries. Thursday? Gosh... What a bad week. The only event I remembered was watching Episode 1... and that alone doesn't constitute what I perceive as a week worth cherishing...

On another token, perhaps it's a good week after all. I got to know more people, and hey, create my first and second versions of my personal homepage! From Galadevia to Narcolepsy, all within a week! That's something worth remembering, isn't it?

On to the point of knowing more people, I guess the BBQ wasn't really that bad after all. At least I got to know more SV members through the boring yet educative wacko game (no prize for guessing why I left the game early). Names like Xinzhi, Melissa, etc are now etched in my mind, though I can't pretty distinguish the faces from the names. What a shame.

And I know Dom and Jane wouldn't have agreed with me, but I guess I've known you people a whole lot better. Well, we didn't really know one another at all before the BBQ. What I mean by knowing you people is... hmm... can't really put it in words... Maybe the feeling's too abstract? I'll rather believe my vocabulary doesn't span the words I'm looking for. I kneel down and kowtow in awe in front of the English masters. Heh. Just hope you people wouldn't find accepting me as a friend a chore. Dom, stupid as it is, I wish you the very best in collecting the SV funds, though I know you're gonna face difficulties collecting money from people like me. Hee. Jane, hope you'll like your Head of Journalism post. I guess that was what you wanted. Well you got it so you should be happy about it. I'm starting to like mine, twisting and turning every little con into a pro so that what I see is a perfect post for me. Heh. Here I am crapping again.

It's three hours past a new week. Guess it's time to put down the past and look towards the future. What crap am I saying. Haven't have my coffee, that is. Here's to the new week.

Cheers! More like I'm having champagne. Nah.. Just kidding.

Jumper
by Third Eye Blind

I wish you would step back from that ledge my friend
You could cut ties with all the lies that you've been living in
And if you do not want to see me again I would understand
I would understand
The angry boy a bit too insane
Icing over a secret pain
You know you don't belong
You're the first to fight
You're way too loud
You're the flash of light on a burial shroud
I know something's wrong
Well everyone I know has got a reason
To say put the past away
I wish you would step back from that ledge my friend
You could cut ties with all the lies that you've been living in
And if you do not want to see me again I would understand
I would understand
Well he's on the table and he's gone to code
And I do not think anyone knows
What they're doing here
And your friends have left you
You've been dismissed
I never thought it would come to this
And I, I want you to know
Everyone's got to face down the demons
Maybe today
We can put the past away
I wish you would step back from that ledge my friend
You could cut ties with all the lies that you've been living in
And if you do not want to see me again I would understand
I would understand
I would understand
I would understand
I would understand
I would understand
Understand
Yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah
Can you put the past away
I wish you would step back from that ledge my friend
I would understand
I wish you would step back from that ledge my friend
I would understand
I wish you would step back from that ledge my friend
And I would understand
I wish you would step back from that ledge my friend
I would understand
I wish you would step back from that ledge my friend
I would understand

Thinkquest Status
[OOO...........................................] 2.0%
Finished the Awards Section today

Food of the Day
Egg Toasts!

Colour of the Day
Black remains

Phrase of the Day
"Must be economical"

0

Loosened up myself. Somehow I think it's no use thinking about the past. So here's the cheerful me once again. Heh. At least I don't need to collect ten dollars from everyone. =)

You want the truth? The truth you shall get. When I was told of my "was to be" post, I accepted it with much joy. To put it childishly, one of my birthday wishes came true. Well, maybe I wished for too many things, or my faith ain't strong enough. Things took a twist at the very last minute. It would be damn terrible if I were still a small child. Well, maybe a small child wouldn't wish for so many things. I'm too naive.

Nobody's to blame. I blame myself. Maybe I ain't good enough. I knew something must be wrong the moment Yusi cornered me in the kitchen (the kitchen was way too small anyway) prior to the BBQ. I kept telling myself she was going to update me on the plan of pushing Jiaxiang down the pool later on. For as long as she was on the phone, I kept believing in myself. The moment she told me the news, for that very moment, I felt my soul float away. Felt so cold then. But somehow I managed to grab it back in time. Actually, it didn't affect me much. I was sort of prepared for this kind of things to happen. Afterall, it'd happened so many times to me, why can't it happen again? So here I present myself, the Vice President of Sensorium Vale. Yes. I will still put my heart and soul into SV. Everything must go on. I'm sure my plans to elevate SV to greater heights will still be worked on, espeicially HiTech'99. Fortunately you may say, this is not one of my Birthday wishes, for I foresee failure should it be one of them.

I'll just like everyone who's concerned about me know, yes, this is certainly a blow to me, but I've gotten over with it. I'm still the cheerful Galvin you all know. =)

Kelv, thanks for you Birthday wishes. As you can see, half of them went down the drain already. I hope you can stay true to your wishes for me, else I don't think I can pull through the second part. And, I'll return you the twenty dollars soon. Perhaps you can lend me another ten? Heh.

Yusi, guess you can get some correction fluid and amend the book. Nah, just kidding. Come to think of it, maybe I wouldn't feel so bad if I didn't know my "was to be" post prior to official release. Maybe I should blame KW hor? Nah... just kidding again.

Thinkquest's my only hope left this year.

Food for thought, my parents say I'm born to be used by people. Hey you people, stop bullying me!!! =)

I'm not innocent.

Thinkquest Status
[OO............................................] 1.8%
Finished the Guestbook today.

How's it Going to Be
by Third Eye Blind
(Starting to like 3EB again, dunno why. The CD's been eating quite some dust.)

I'm only pretty sure that I can't take anymore
Before you take a swing
I wonder what are we fighting for
When I say out loud
I want to get out of this
I wonder is there anything
I'm going to miss

I wonder how it's going to be
When you don't know me
How's it going to be
When you're sure I'm not there
How's it going to be
When there's no one there to talk to
Between you and me
Cause I don't care
How's it going to be
How's it going to be

Where we used to laugh
There's a shouting match
Sharp as a thumbnail scratch
A silence I can't ignore
Like the hammock by the
Doorway we spent time in swings empty
Don't see lightning like last fall
When it was always about to hit me

I wonder how's it going to be
When it goes down
How's it going to be
When you're not around
How's it going to be
When you found out there was nothing
Between you and me
Cause I don't care
How's it going to be

And how's it going to be
When you don't know me anymore
And how's it going to be
Want to get myself back in again
The soft dive of oblivion
I want to taste the salt of your skin
The soft dive of oblivion oblivion
How's it going to be
When you don't know me anymore
How's it going to be
How's it going to be
How's it going to be

Food of the Day
Mom's Fried Rice. Simply the Best.

Colour of the Day
White

Phrase of the Day
"Wait..."

0

You only see what your eyes want to see
How can life be what you want it to be
You're frozen when your heart's not open
You're so concerned with how much you get
You waste your time with hate and regret
You're broken when your heart's not open

Mmm,Mmm,Mmm.. If I could melt your heart
Mmm,Mmm,Mmm.. we'd never be apart
Mmm,Mmm,Mmm.. Give yourself to me
Mmm,Mmm,Mmm.. You hold the key

Now there's no point in placing the blame
And you should know I'd suffer the same
If I loose you, my heart would be broken
Love is a bird, she needs to fly
Let all the hurt inside of you die
You're frozen when your heart's not open

Mmm,Mmm,Mmm.. If I could melt your heart
Mmm,Mmm,Mmm.. we'd never be apart
Mmm,Mmm,Mmm.. Give yourself to me
Mmm,Mmm,Mmm.. You hold the key

You only see what your eyes want to see
How can life be what you want it to be
You're frozen when your heart's not open

Mmm,Mmm,Mmm.. If I could melt your heart
Mmm,Mmm,Mmm.. we'd never be apart
Mmm,Mmm,Mmm.. Give yourself to me
Mmm,Mmm,Mmm.. Love holds the key
Mmm,Mmm,Mmm.. If I could melt your heart
Mmm,Mmm,Mmm.. we'd never be apart
Mmm,Mmm,Mmm.. Give yourself to me
Mmm,Mmm,Mmm.. Love holds the key

If I could melt your heart
If I could melt your heart

Dom, I think I know you better after the bbq, if you would agree. Glad you show me your homepage. :) Don't think my original title suits. Afterall, this is public. Hah. Restrictions. Message me if you're reading this.

Dom and Jane, hope we'll get to communicate more frequently.

Thinkquest Status
[OO............................................] 1.5%

Food of the Day
The BBQ? My salad's the best. And nobody can deny it.

Colour of the Day
Undefined.

Phrase of the Day
"... ..."

0

Having thought of it, I've been having resolutions since Secondary Three. Didn't have enough faith I guess. Most of them weren't realised. It's pretty much my fault, or so I guess.

Why do people bore resolutions? They're too bored they have nothing else better to do cept think about the future, or they've committed such sinful crimes they just have to promise themselves not to do them again.

Is being overweight a sinful crime? In this health-conscious world, I'm afriad so. Hah, I've committed a crime. Ow. That hurts. What can I do? Okay, I'll do one hundred crunches everyday, fifty pull ups every now and then, and run like a mad dog at the track every week. Unrealistic it may seem, I guess it'll be possible to complete a quarter of what is above. Humpf. So I've just given myself a resolution for my sinful crime. I'm gonna keep track of this.

I'm just too bored.

What about me being bad in English? THAT is a BIG sinful act I've committed. Cause I never wanted to be bad in English. Cause I ever wanted to be a writer, like local writer Colin Cheong. Liked his books. Got my inspiration from him. Thought I would be able to brush up, somewhere, somehow, and be good enough to publish a book. But I failed, terribly. Never got the chance to manage a firm grasp on the language, ever since primary school. Was void of my top boy status cause I got only an A for English instead of an A*. Thought I would do something about it in Secondary School. I was wrong again. Came out with a B3 in the English Language. Am I wrong in pushing the blame to the teachers for not paying more attention to my English? I guess so. I am to blame. Didn't bother to read more books myself, didn't bother to learn new words like what my friends do. I always have this feeling that my standard of English has been laying stagnant since I left Primary School. Should I do something about it? Guess 'tis the time to do so.

I'll learn one new word everyday, and use it in my journal entries. I'll highlight it and make sure I'll remember it. Sounds pretty much like Primary School days, doesn't it?

I'm just too bored. Nah... just kidding. I'll do it. You'll see.

Thinkquest Status
[O.............................................] 0.5%

Food of the Day
The BBQ (Tomorrow's entry)

Colour of the Day
Green. A part of the layout for my Thinkquest Project is green. And I like it.

Phrase of the Day
"Cause I don't care how's it gonna be..."

0

I knew it would come, it's a matter of time. They never got along well, and they both admitted how they regretted the very day they tied the knot. One's so emotionally unstable, overly suspicious and insensitive, while the other so fierce, so... oh well. Okay, so that's it. BOOM. One big blow to me. I really don't know. They left me feeling so disgusted, so terrible, especially the female lead. It's not a matter of personal dilemma. If I'm given a choice to choose, I'll choose both or neither. I'm at a lost of words. Man shed no tears. Does he? Hah... here's a catch... I didn't shed any. I shall wait for that day.

I'll keep this entry short.

--------------[ Intermission ]--------------

Hah. All things come to a good end, don't they? Maybe it was my persuasive powers that did the trick. The time is now 8:22pm. We had dinner together. It seems they've patched things up. The keyword here is "seems". I marvelled at myself. Maybe I can take up the challenge to be a councillor. In my next life maybe. Well, maybe I don't need to shed any tear or blood afterall. =) Pardon my soul for my terok English.

Love Ain't Here Anymore
(Dedicated to the both of them)
Baby, don't you want me to go
So honey why don't you beg me to stay for love
And talk the way we used to talk
'Til we both know what we've lost
Never say the words we did before
When it was over

Love ain't here anymore
Love ain't here anymore
It's gone away to a town called yesterday
Love ain't here anymore

Listen, oh listen, I don't wanna let go
So maybe we can change the way we feel for love
And open up the way we did before
Now is the right time, and I'm sure
You'd never said the words you did before
'Til it was over

Love ain't here anymore
Love ain't here anymore
It's gone away to a town called yesterday
Love don't live here anymore

And when I find a place for me to keep my sweet love
Then I will leave it there forevermore
And when I find someone to share, I'll never give up
I will hold that belief that this love leads to more

Love ain't here anymore
Love ain't here anymore
It's gone away to a town called yesterday
Love ain't here anymore

Food of the Day
Long John Silvers Fish and Chiken Combo Max it with extra CRUMBS again =)

Colour of the Day
Black

Phrase of the Day
"Humpf"